I’m restless right now.
I love a lot of my life right now, but at the same time I know I want more. I love my house with my cats and the freedom I have in my new job and the future travels I have planned. But, I’m having a severe case of small-town syndrome, which started late last year and hasn’t disappeared.
Part of me wonders if it’s another symptom of everything not being quite right with how I am thinking about things. I wonder if it stems from wanting to jump into something new to distract from the things causing me discomfort right now. I need a bit more time to work through things in therapy before I make any life changing decisions, but at the same time I can try to calm my restlessness by looking at options.
I’m currently on a contract with work so there may be an opportunity next year to move form my small town to a city. I want to live in a city just once. It might not end up being right for me, but I want to try it out. I also want to try out living by the coast and up in the mountains at some point in my life. I’ve come to realise I don’t want to stay living where I am forever and I’m okay with that. I like a base, but after a few years I need to move onto something new and that is exciting.
It is about being brave and stepping out into the unknown every so often. I need to take myself out of my comfort zone to make sure I am living my life to the full and not becoming complacent.
My heart has not yet found it’s permanent place and it may never find it. I’m not a nomad, but I want to move around and experience different things. I thought I would be living abroad this time 10 years ago, but I didn’t go after it. My dreams have changed and that is okay, but I won’t ignore them any more or let the everyday distract me from what I really want to live my life for.
I am curious about what life can hold. I’ve made decisions about my life already that mean I need to find my fulfillment away from the norm. I don’t want to conform with a traditional way of life. This might be my way of rebelling against the life part of me thinks I should want. I really want adventure and exploration! My versions of these are probably very different from other people’s and again that is okay with me. In the end as long as I am living the life I want to live what else is there to be concerned with?
Photo credit – my friend Sue
This weekend I was down in Brighton with the ladies to support the BM10k and the Brighton Marathon. This is the second year I’ve been down, but some of the girls this is the 4th year. It’s a weekend of laughing, shopping, eating and drinking!
Including some amazing breakfasts from Al Campo and Moksha Caffe – both very yummy and worth trips for food any time of day.
I do mean any time of day! This is the battenberg from Moksha and I also had a V60 pour over coffee, which was amazing too.
The rest of the time was spent wandering the charity shops and the Laines. We stopped at Choccywoccydoodah’s to have a gander at all the treats (nothing purchased though!).
I enjoyed some gelato in the rain at Gelato Gusto. I had the coffee and the white chocolate honeycomb. I saw they had maple bacon after I had ordered and would have tried that if I had realised.
I found a tattoo and piercing parlor that was open and got my ears re-pierced using needles rather than a gun. It stung, but didn’t hurt as I remember the gun doing. Also I have silver coloured earrings, rather than the gold ones you usually have to have which is great. Now just to take care of them so they heal properly so I can add to my jewelry collection with funky earrings.
The Sunday was spent supporting the ladies running the 10k and a couple of club runners doing the marathon. It was a great weekend away and I’m looking forward to next year’s trip already as one of the group signed up to do the marathon next year!
Photo Credit – my friend Edith (who moved from the gap in between me and everyone else – I am not really sat on my own!
A couple of weeks ago I went to London on a super cheap train ticket and spent the day visiting museums, something I have not done in a long time.
I booked to go to the Cosmonaults exhibition at the Science Museum and arrived at 10am. There was already a queue when I arrived! It was very busy with families, but the exhibition I went to was quieter due to the additional cost of a ticket. It was a fascinating exhibition and gave me insight into an area of history I wasn’t really aware of. I remember doing space as a kid in school, but that focused on the moon landing and not the space race before and after it. If you have chance to go before mid March when it closes I recommend it!
I also had a wander around the rest o the museum, but it was very busy and not as relaxing as I would have liked, so I decided to go to the Natural History Museum.
The queue to the Natural History Museum was extremely long so I decided to go the the Victoria and Albert Museum instead. I’ve never been to this museum and would like to go back on a quieter day to explore more. I only did part of the ground floor as it was lunchtime and I was hungry. The main part I explored was the Japan section as I’m going there in October and this made me super excited.
It ended up being a grey, but dry day so I decided to wander along in the direction of Harrods to find find somewhere for lunch. With the queue for NHM being so long when I left I decided to switch up my day slightly and wander the food hall and toy section of Harrods for something different. I then headed back to the Natural History Museum and luckily the queue had reduced, but it was still there (and was still there when I left to catch my train home).
I was just going to have a wander around all the places I loved as a kid, but the dinosaur exhibition was closed so I ended up paying extra to see the Otherworlds exhibition instead and it was great! The photos and how they were put together was amazing. It really put our place in the universe in perspective. I almost went in the Wildlife Photographer of the Year exhibition as well, but ended up just looking in the shop as the queue for that was even longer and I was running out of time in my day.
I decided I wanted to walk back to Paddington through Kensington Gardens and Hyde Park. It wasn’t raining, but it was extremely windy. There were lots of people out running and walking and it felt nice to be going through a green area of the city. I couldn’t get away from the constant sound of traffic though and it made me appreciate the green spaces and parks that are closer to home and where you can peace and quiet easily. I think I could spend a whole day walking around the parks and would love to do that on a sunny warm day.
I would like to go back and do all the museums again, but at a quieter time, like during the week when kids are at school. I had a lovely day though and really want to do things like this more often this year.
The start of my 2016 has been great so far! I went cross country skiing for the first time in Austria with Exodus (www.exodus.co.uk) and it was fantastic. It was so nice to go on my own and do exactly what I wanted to do I came back feeling very relaxed and ready to throw myself into the year and have a great time. This is more of a photos post as it has taken me so long to transfer them from my camera to my computer that I haven’t blogged properly since mid January!
Day 1 Travel from London and arrive at Wienerhof in Trins
Day 2 – Ski in Gschnitztal
Day 3 – Ski in the Obernbergtal
Day 4 – Ski in the Schmirntal
Day 5 – Free day wandering around Steinach
Day 6 – Ski at Maria Waldrast
Day 7 – Ski in the Schmirntal
Day 8 – Wandering around Innsbruck and then travel home