Sometimes the hardest thing to admit to ourselves is that we need help.
I need help losing weight and I will need help keeping it off. That’s one of the many reasons why I have signed up to WeightWatchers. I’ve tried on my own and done okay. The first time I did WeightWatchers I was two stone heavier than I am now, so I feel really good I haven’t put it all back on before admitting I need help.
The scary part of the process is signing up. I felt nervous as I didn’t know anyone or what the leader would be like, but I still wanted to go. I got there a bit late as did not realise the time stated was the actual talk time, rather than when weighing starts, but they were nice and let me in then did the weigh in. It was nice to be back in a group who are on their own journeys.
I tried to pay attention to the talk, but was nervous about weighing. However it was nice listening, rather than actively joining in. The talk this week was about outdoor eating, now that spring has arrived and summer is on the way. It got us thinking outside the box of normal BBQ staples and thinking about other things that would be much more plan friendly.
I’m treating this about real food. I am not going to get sucked into all the products they do, but rather eat as I have been, just less of it.
I’ve still got to look through all the things you get when you join tonight, but wanted share that I am on 35 ProPoints a day and will be looking and learning about the Places and Routines aspects of the approach at the weekend.
They were also running a free gift offer at the moment that I upgraded to the pack of books as I love having hard copies of things.
My aim for my first week is to track everything and reduce what I’m eating to stick to the ProPoints. I am going to use the Journal as I think writing it down is better for me than tracking online. I will use the online tool while at work and other parts of the App on my phone to monitor things. I also plan to also track my activity to see how much I do, but I am not going to use those points. The first week for me is about learning the plan and working out where I need to make changes to make it easier for me to stick to.
It’s been an interesting couple of weeks. I’ve felt out of sorts, but after a fantastic holiday to Porto I feel better and feel strong about my decisions.
I lost 2.6lbs this week after putting on 4lbs last week. So that is great, but I was really trying.
I forgot to do a screen shot of last week as well so here are two weeks
I have made good progress on my activity and steps, and also improved my sleep a bit! Food tracking wise has not been good at all. I’ve been aware of what I’m eating, but not counting calories. I want to start WeightWatchers this week and am ready to commit back to that aspect of losing weight. I think tracking is one of the main influences on how much I eat, but I do not get on with electronic tracking, I am going to keep it focused on writing it all down. I would like to keep inputing it into MFP, but I am focusing on writing it down so it sinks in. It’s like revision – I remember it better once I have written it down myself.
So my aims for this week is to get to the gym twice as I’ve been slacking in this area of my fitness and have noticed how my strength is reducing in my shoulders and legs, so need to get back on that. I am going to go to a WeightWatchers meeting one lunchtime and then sit down and work out how I am going to make the time to so stay organised. I am also going to make time to do my CBT work this week as that has been left since I went on holiday, so need to go back through it. My other goal is to learn how to change a tyre on my bike – only a slight thing seeing as my triathlon is in two weeks!
Hope you are all having a good week. I’m starting the week off after my running session watching The Hobbit
So this last week was better than the week before, but not great. I lost it on Friday and couldn’t get it back until Sunday. I stayed the same weight, which is frustrating, but at least I didn’t gain.
I was really please with my average calorie burn over the week and also with my activity and steps! I went swimming, running, to the gym and did 30 Day Shred! I also got my bike fixed and went for a 5 mile and 9 mile rides at the weekend. I’ve got this part down
The calories consumed reflect the good days, but no the two bing days. I’ve set myself the task of sticking to 1800 calories for six days this week and then having one day where I can have more – that will be Saturday I think. Trying a different tactic by setting myself a rule. I tried using maintain a 1000 calorie deficit, but I really struggle with it and tend to each too much. So I’m working on reducing my snacking and having three meals a day and one snack – I’ve been listening to Jillian Michaels!
Speaking of Jillian Michaels I listened to her podcast from a few weeks ago where she had a caller and was talking about why we stay overweight. It got me thinking about what does staying at my current weight afford me? I would love to say nothing at all, but I know that is not true. It is a protection in some form. I think from rejection mainly. It is an excuse for not doing things or not being the best at something. I found it really interesting to think about this without judgement, just honesty.
I am definitely afraid of rejection and it is something I am working on with my CBT therapist. The session last week touched on it and it was so hard to talk about. My post from easter weekend really got me thinking. I keep so busy that it stops me from feeling or thinking about things that are really getting to me. I didn’t realise how lonely I was until I was on my own without the option to do something else. That scared me and not in a good way.
This week I’ve planned my meals and fitness and feel positive. I want to do what is good for myself and treat myself well. I want to value myself and make them internal to myself. I spend my life seeing myself how I think the world does and I want to change that. I want to know deep inside I am good enough being me. I want to know I can challenge myself and not feel afraid of failing, but a willingness to take risks and try new things. I want to be myself around people – those I know and those I don’t yet. I want to not be afraid of rejection for being me. I want to stop using my weight as an excuse and learn new ways of protecting myself, while allowing myself to be vulnerable and real.
I feel good.
I totally forgot to do this post yesterday!
I decided to sign back put to a local organic farm veg box scheme and got my first box Thursday!
I also got milk and eggs added to my weekly delivery
My plan is to base my weeks meals around what I get in the box. This week was lots of root vegetables so I plan to do some roasted veg tomorrow then make a potato based salads for lunches
A 3 and 6 month plan to be exact!
I’ve been feeling rubbish about myself these last few weeks. I’ve let everything go and am now feeling the consequences. I feel heavy, tired, I don’t fit into my clothes, I have no direction and I want to get off medication. Now I am in my house it is time to get into gear and become the person I’ve been waiting to become. I thought moving out I would magically become that person, but deep down I knew it would take work and now it’s time to focus myself.
So I’ve spent the last week reviewing my goals, motivations and options to reach where I want to be.
My 2013 Health Goals
- Lose 50lbs
- Fit in a size 14 Gap Jeans (UK size)
- Run 10km
- Swim 5km
- Do a Triathlon
- Get Off Medication for Depression
To do these I have to break them down in more manageable chunks. Hence my 3 and 6 month plans
3 Month Plan
- Lose 16lbs to reach 200lbs
- Sign up for 6 Month Ki Fit Membership
- Use Fitbook to break it down into weekly goals and progress
- Use MFP to track my food and link it to Ki Fit
- Girls Meal in April
- Local 5km Race for Life in June
- Second Swimming Club Gala in July
- Running Club 10km Event
- Book a holiday for September
- Coffee or Tea Subscription
- Purchase Jillian Michaels Body Revolution Programme for 6 Month Plan
6 Month Plan
- Review 3 Month Plan and decide specific goals
- Ki Fit, Fitbook, MFP and Body Revolution
- Book Mont Blanc walking holiday for Spring 2014
I feel good about this. I know I’ve had plans before and not fulfilled them, but this has got to change. I need to do some digging into myself as to why I have put weight back on and what is stopping me from losing weight. I need to ask myself some tough questions and stop denying what is really wrong. I am going to use my CBT sessions to dig into this with help. I know my behaviours are causing the issues, so I need to work out why I am behaving the way I am and then work to change the triggers. It’s going to hard work, but I need to do this to live the life I want to live.
I am waiting for my Fitbook to arrive, so am holding off on ordering my new Ki Fit subscription until it arrives then will start the 3 month plan properly. But until then I am going to work like it’s here and focus on getting back into exercising regularly and tracking all my food. These are areas I’ve neglected so it will good to focus just on those for a week, then bring in the other aspects when the Fitbook arrives.
My plan is to review each week on here and more if necessary. I need to be accountable to myself and for it to be visible to more than just me. So join me on the next adventure