I’m restless right now.
I love a lot of my life right now, but at the same time I know I want more. I love my house with my cats and the freedom I have in my new job and the future travels I have planned. But, I’m having a severe case of small-town syndrome, which started late last year and hasn’t disappeared.
Part of me wonders if it’s another symptom of everything not being quite right with how I am thinking about things. I wonder if it stems from wanting to jump into something new to distract from the things causing me discomfort right now. I need a bit more time to work through things in therapy before I make any life changing decisions, but at the same time I can try to calm my restlessness by looking at options.
I’m currently on a contract with work so there may be an opportunity next year to move form my small town to a city. I want to live in a city just once. It might not end up being right for me, but I want to try it out. I also want to try out living by the coast and up in the mountains at some point in my life. I’ve come to realise I don’t want to stay living where I am forever and I’m okay with that. I like a base, but after a few years I need to move onto something new and that is exciting.
It is about being brave and stepping out into the unknown every so often. I need to take myself out of my comfort zone to make sure I am living my life to the full and not becoming complacent.
My heart has not yet found it’s permanent place and it may never find it. I’m not a nomad, but I want to move around and experience different things. I thought I would be living abroad this time 10 years ago, but I didn’t go after it. My dreams have changed and that is okay, but I won’t ignore them any more or let the everyday distract me from what I really want to live my life for.
I am curious about what life can hold. I’ve made decisions about my life already that mean I need to find my fulfillment away from the norm. I don’t want to conform with a traditional way of life. This might be my way of rebelling against the life part of me thinks I should want. I really want adventure and exploration! My versions of these are probably very different from other people’s and again that is okay with me. In the end as long as I am living the life I want to live what else is there to be concerned with?
This month I have found a few things where I was able to sign up for things for delivery only and the first up is a monthly vitamin box from VITL. Bluebird Tea sent an email to their customers advertising a box for £2.95 delivery and I jumped at the chance. Usual cost is £35.95 for 28 day supply.
Vitamins and supplements have always gone over my head. I have taken zinc for years as it helped with a foot problem I had through my teenage years. Other than that I have tried fish oils, multivitamins and other supplements without knowing why I was doing it if I’m totally honest. Most of the time I heard it on a podcast or read it in a fitness book and thought I would give it a go.
This box is supposed to contain everything we need to help keep you healthy on top of a good diet and exercise routine. It contains four tablets for each day to:
- Fortify – multivitamin
- Focus – Krill oil
- Protect – COQ10
- Replenish – supergreens
There is enough for 28 days in each box. The packaging is great and discrete. It is also convenient as you pull of the strip for the day you need and it keeps all the other fresh and organised.
I am a sucker for knowing if things are more or less expensive than doing it yourself so I looked into buying all separately at several well know shops I tend to shop in. ,Overall I found they are more expensive and not as convenient.
- Holland & Barrett £3.50 + £17 + £19 + £7 = £46.50
- Boots £2 + £13 + £16 + £18 = £49
- Predator Nutrition – £4 + £15 + £10 + £8 = £37
I found this really interesting. Even buying in bulk dividing out did not work out economically. Now I know I may not have chosen the same quality and so could be looking at completely different things, but I went for the cheapest I could find at each shop with the same dosage. It was an interesting desktop experiment.
I’ve taken almost a week’s worth now and haven’t noticed a difference yet, but I am hopeful I will see something as things replenish in my system. I leave the box in the kitchen to make sure I have them with my breakfast for ease. I haven’t decided if I am going to continue beyond the trial box yet as will have to think about the finances and what differences I see, but so far I love it and the idea of it!
After an unintended blog break for the last couple of weeks I’ve finally gotten round to putting my thoughts together on the greatly received pack from Predator Nutrition.
Just to note I received these products for free, but my opinions are and will always be my own and honest.
First up were the Pre-Workout Gold Standard drinks in Fruit Punch flavour. I have to admit I didn’t really like this one. I found it very sweet and often grainy as it required a lot of shaking to get the powder to dissolve fully. However I did notice that it gave me an energy boost! I wasn’t great with drinking it consistently and ended up only using it when I was tired and not wanting to go out to Body Combat or swimming, so I still have a few packets left to use. I have noticed there is also a watermelon flavour and I wonder if that is nicer than the fruit punch. Each packet contains two servings, which was a little annoying as I ended up weighing out each time, rather than it be a convenient thing to grab and go. At £2.99 for a packet I don’t think it’s a bad price and probably cheaper than other energy drinks around. I have overall mixed feelings about this one – I didn’t like the flavour, but did not the energy uplift – so I am still debating whether to get some more.
Secondly were a mixed bunch of Quest Bars, which I absolutely loved. They were tasty and convenient to grab and eat after a workout, which held me over until I could get home and cook a proper dinner. I didn’t notice any difference in how my body felt from the increased protein, but overall I felt better as I was eating better, rather than going for whatever is quickest. AT £2.79 each to 12 bars for £24.99 they feel expensive. I was consistent with these and ate one after every workout until they had gone. For me this this seems an expensive luxury right now when I am trying to stick to a tight budget so I can go on some big trips. I wonder what I could use instead as something protein based and easy to reach – something for me to think about!
I would like to thank the team over at Predator Nutrition for being kind enough to send this pack over to me for review. It definitely helped get me back into routine, although it has wavered in the last week with my big Solent Swim coming up on the 19th September! I have a few things to think about for getting back into routine after that and keeping it going through the winter. These products showed me that sometimes it can be very useful to add things to your diet to get specific benefits.
Life is all about balance I believe.
I seem to have lost my balance in the last few years. Okay, so maybe not my whole balance, but rather an overall balance in life. I’ve had to focus on my mental health significantly and that has thrown other aspects off kilter, but in a way that is because before that I didn’t focus on it at all!
At the same time it is important to not try and do absolutely everything!
I suppose it is really about priorities and finding the right balance at the right time for all your own priorities.
I think this is why I have found changing my lifestyle for the better hard, as I have not prioritised to balance. Instead I have prioritised to the extreme with an all-or-nothing approach. This is not a sustainable way to live and I flip from one side to the other repeatedly. I don’t feel very accountable at the moment, not even to myself. I know I have spoken about this before and stayed away from the subject as felt I was failing, by not making progress, when that is not true. Every day we make progress in our lives. It is not about the destination, but rather the journey we need to be enjoying. My cats are a huge part of my life now and that has changed how much I want to be away from the house during the day and they play a big role in keeping me mentally healthy.
What then, are my current priorities?
- Healthy eating
- Being active
- Career progression
- Balancing my time being social and being alone
Other things I need to keep an eye on:
- My mental health
- My swimming goals
- My finances
- My blog and social media
So I am taking inspiration from Ashley over at Healthy Happier Bear and am going to post my weekly swEATS! This will include everything I’ve done that is active and everything I have eaten. I really want to be aware of my snacking as I think this is my downfall. I also want to be able to take a good look back at what I have eaten so I can see what does and doesn’t work and what adaptations I could make to improve things. Activity wise I want to get back to doing something active everyday as I have lost this habit and it is so hard to get back.
January is going to be a fantastic month!
- I turn 30!
- I am going skiing to Italy!
- I am going to see Jillian Michaels in Cardiff – FRONT ROW VIP!
I am actually looking forward to turning 30 and leaving my twenties behind. The last decade hasn’t been a great one for me. I have learnt a lot and will be taking a lot of things forward in to the next decade to make it a good one. I feel as though I will be entering the next phase of my life and there are lots of possibilities for where my life might go.
I haven’t been on a proper holiday since before I bought my house, so I have always planned to go away for my 30th. I chose skiing as it is something I enjoy, but don’t get to do too often. Plus it makes a perfect January holiday destination. My sister and I chose Italy as we love that country, but have never been skiing there. I go on my actual birthday and will be spending the first week of my thirties enjoying myself in the mountains.
Then last night I received the email to say Jillian Michaels is coming to the UK for her Maximise Your Life tour and I had to get myself a ticket. I went on and had a look at costs and then found I could get a third row ticket and then got really excited. I then realised there was a different link in the email and got a middle front row ticket with VIP meet and greet and couldn’t turn it down. It’s on the pricey side, but I have been a big fan of Jillian Michaels for a long time and have followed her tour through her podcasts wishing she would come over to the UK.
All of this has given me determination and motivation to get myself focused on my nutrition and to build my fitness base back up so I can enter my thirties with the results I wanted from Project Lifestyle in the first place. I am feeling really positive and in a good place. I still have low moments, but I have the tools in place to make sure I come through them and learn from them. I am being more social then I have been in a few years and although I choose which events I go to, I am excited about finding new friends and enjoying my fitness clubs. Volunteering for events and swim coaching has been a fantastic thing for me. Getting my kittens has my house feel like a proper home. I really feel like the last year of my twenties I have stepped up my game and focused on the things that really matter to me, and stopped fretting about the things that don’t.
So as you can probably tell I am really looking forward to January!
I am also looking forward to December as I love Christmas too!