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I’m making excuses.

If I want to lead a healthy life I just have to do it.

I know binge eating is a problem, but I can avoid my triggers.

I need to nap and go to bed earlier.

I need to mix up my food and exercise to avoid boredom.

I need to get engaged with my hobbies.

  • Look into triathlon training

  • Look into nutrition

  • Start crafting lists or thought journal – use tapes to make things pretty (not perfect)

  • Cycle and walk for fun – take camera out and enjoy the countryside

  • Take up headspace and practice mindfulness

I need to stick to my budget and that will allow me to save and spend on things I really want rather than chocolate or binge foods.

I need to make the food I eat for meals more appetising.

I need to make health a priority.

The number on the scale is just a number. It does not define me or success.

What do I want to live for?

  • See the world!

  • Go skiing all over the world

  • Try new activities

  • Meet new people

  • Sign up for events and be able to give anything a go

  • To experience life

  • To practice meditation and maybe take up tai chi or a martial art

  • To explore my local place where ever I am

For me life isn’t about people or things. It’s not about starting a family of settling down. It’s about experiences and exploring and learning. I don’t ever want to stop learning.

I’m limited in terms of money right not, but that doesn’t mean I can’t learn about health and myself. Let’s rephrase that – I’ve not got the opportunity to plan any trips right now so I can use this time to explore myself. This is an opportunity to not be distracted by grand plans and trip planning. This is an opportunity to get to know me on a daily basis. This is an opportunity to make great small decisions that add up to something amazing each day.

I’m going to tune into myself more often. I’m going to ask myself how I’m feeling. I’m going to ask myself what I fancy.

I’m also going to listen. To myself!

I would like to take the words – should, could, need, must – out of my vocabulary. I am going to replace them with kinder words of encouragement and listening.

This is a totally random post. It wasn’t started as a post. I was in work having trouble concentrating on anything that I opened a word document and kept adding to it throughout the day. It helped me get my thoughts out and I feel better for it. It might not make much sense to anyone else reading, but I wanted to share the struggle as well as the success.

Random Things

It’s going to be a busy weekend so I wanted share some random things from the last week.

I picked up my road bike on Tuesday and it’s sat in my living room against the sofa so I can practice with the shoes and pedals.


I’ve spent the week commuting to paper diaries and journals. So I use the Fitbook for my food, a hobbit Moleskine for my blog, a notebook for my positives journal, and have added back in my Filofax for my diary. I’ve also gig a set of molrskines to crest a health journal and to use after my Fitbook is finished to log my meals. I would live something that does it all, but yet to find something like that.


I’ve also been thinking a lot about binge eating this week. I wish there was a way to just stop. I need to spend some serious thinking time understanding why I do it and what I can do to support my move away from its dependency.

That’s it for now. I’ve got my triathlon coaching assessment on sunday so I’ll be revising tomorrow then stressing until it’s over!

Project Lifestyle – February Mental Health Workstream

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I think I’m coming to see this workstream as more than just mental health. It is more about my general well being and treating myself right.

I want this month to focus on the things I already have. Over the last few years I have placed a lot of importance on money and things and I want to move away from that. I have everything I need and don’t need to spend money to have a good time. This goes hand in hand with my other workstreams, but this one is focusing on changing how I think about things.

It’s going to be hard. I’ve taught myself to place value on things based on their monetary value. This goes hand in hand with quality for me. I don’t buy super clothes or shoes as I like them to last a long time, so I only buy these things where I need them. However wanting and needing are separate things. I am trying to change my purchasing habits to only buy things when I need them. To determine this need I am basing on whether I will use it pretty much as soon as I buy it. So for example I waited to spend my birthday money on a Garmin, once I had decided I needed it for running and cycling and then used it right away.

A big exception to this will be the buy I am buying through my cycle to work scheme. Technically I don’t need a bike as I have one, but I am going to get serious about triathlons and cycling and know this will help my confidence and skill. I plan on getting out on bike rides as soon as I get it!

So this month is focusing on my evenings and weekends and looking for ways I can appreciate what I already have. I’ve had some ideas:

  • Make bread and bagels

  • Go through cookbooks and find recipes to try

  • Cook more and make my own ready meals like I used to

  • Read more and reduce my To Read pile of books

  • Use my memberships – cinema, gym, Netflix, coffee

  • Write letters to friends

  • Search the internet for free ways to try things I want to have a go at such as calligraphy

It’s a simple month really and something I intend to carry on through my life. I don’t want to sweat the small stuff, but I want to stop and smell the roses.

100 Reasons

I have been looking at why I sabotage myself. Looking at why in times of overwhelming emotions I turn to food. But more importantly why I want to change that. I’ve been inspired by Sarah McGee and created a list of 100 Reasons to remind myself why I want to make the changes I do. These are to help me with Project lifestyle.

So here are my 100 Reasons:

  1. To live for as long as I can

  2. To not waste time worrying about how my weight stops me doing things

  3. To have fun

  4. To be full of confidence

  5. To be happy

  6. To love myself no matter what

  7. To be able to sign up for any event knowing I could do it

  8. To enjoy competing

  9. To be faster at swimming

  10. To be faster at running

  11. To enjoy cycling

  12. To not waste money on rubbish food

  13. Because it feels good

  14. For the post workout high

  15. To be fit for life

  16. To buy clothes in any shop I want

  17. To feel comfortable in all my clothes

  18. To be know as active

  19. To wear pretty things

  20. To not worry about taking up too much space

  21. To be able to climb mountains

  22. To have more energy

  23. To sleep better

  24. To not sweat as much

  25. To fit the normal blood pressure monitor sleeve

  26. To stop my legs rubbing together (hence always wearing trousers)

  27. To never have to worry about a ‘maximum’ weight limit

  28. To be able to go horse riding

  29. To feel strong (physically and mentally)

  30. To set new goals and achieve them

  31. To push my limits and find new ones

  32. To be taken more seriously professionally

  33. To not always be thinking about the next meal

  34. To inspire others

  35. To inspire myself

  36. To be considered healthy

  37. To show others what I am capable of

  38. To prove myself wrong

  39. To feel sexy occasionally

  40. Because I love how treating my body well feels

  41. Because I only have one body

  42. Because I deserve love

  43. To keep setting PB’s

  44. To beat depression

  45. To be able to buy knee high boots that fit

  46. To be able to wear those knee high boots over skinny jeans

  47. Because each workout is a therapy session

  48. Because I don’t want to waste time being lazy

  49. To stop beating myself up

  50. To be a better person

  51. To smile more and more

  52. To be able to hold a conversation while running with my club

  53. To run with the main group of runners at club

  54. To keep up with the top swimming lane and take the lead

  55. I want to live everyday

  56. To be able to says ‘I’ve done that’ when someone asks

  57. To go hiking and enjoy every step, rather than count every step

  58. To develop a helpful relationship with food that supports my life

  59. To not worry if I’ll fit a high viz jacket while at work

  60. To take part in events and not worry about being lifted up by others

  61. To not have trousers cut me in half when I sit at my desk

  62. To fit shirts and other tops with sleeves that aren’t stretchy

  63. To wear dresses to work

  64. To wear dresses on nights out

  65. To last longer in high heels

  66. To not worry about injury

  67. To learn as I go and be like a sponge of knowledge

  68. To feel like I belong anywhere I want to be

  69. To appreciate my down time

  70. To be able to do Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred level 3

  71. To be considered healthy by my doctor

  72. To not worry about my blood pressure (although my doctor said was excellent in Jan 14)

  73. To be able to hold yoga positions for longer and lower

  74. To be able to bend forward when I’m sat with my legs straight out in front

  75. To not hurt my knees when helping out at swimming

  76. To do unassisted versions of exercises I currently do

  77. To live the life I want to live

  78. To not let my weight limit me

  79. To be like the people I admire

  80. To learn new things about myself

  81. To continue being adventurous and willing to try things

  82. To cultivate and maintain relationships

  83. To not be afraid to ask for help

  84. To big myself up among my peers

  85. To love every type of weather

  86. To not be self conscious about my body (especially in a wetsuit)

  87. To have clearer skin and be able to not wear makeup

  88. To create a self disciplined and focus self

  89. To be myself

  90. To make changes to myself because I already love myself

  91. To seek out new opportunities, rather than wait for them to happen

  92. To smash my 4000m meter swim session goal

  93. To feel good in running tights rather than a fat blob

  94. To be able to race, rather than know I’ll be beaten

  95. To be a triathlete

  96. To cycle to work regularly

  97. To dance more

  98. To laugh at myself

  99. To go paddle boarding more often

  100. To kick arse in anything I do (including my own arse!)

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Project Lifestyle – Weekend Strategy

Project Lifestyle Purple Cover

The current situation since start Project Lifestyle has highlighted the need for more work to overcome unhealthy habits at the weekend. I currently struggle to eat well at the weekends and it has often led to binges, gaining weight, and undoing all the healthy habits I use during the week. There is a lack of structure at the weekend by having too much choice on what I can do. There is also a loneliness aspect that comes from spending a lot of time alone. Some alone time is required for my introverted nature to rest and recharge, but there is currently too much to be healthy.

I am not doing this as part of a stand alone workstream as I feel it will take a strategy combining aspects of every workstream.

Draft Strategy:

  • Plan my weekends in advance
    • Schedule my swimming, food shopping, car cleaning, and house cleaning
  • Plan an evening in by myself to rest and recharge
  • Say ‘yes’ or ‘no’ depending on the specific weekend – be selfish with my time
    • Do not have events of both days of the weekend
  • Meal plan
    • Cook meals that take a longer time and can be set aside for week
    • Make a packed lunch to structure my day
    • Make pizza from scratch
  • Be careful of ‘Free Time’
    • Use for tasks leaving undone – meter reads, lightbulbs, washing, fence etc
    • Use to read
    • Reduce internet browsing time
  • Plan visits and walks
    • Take a packed lunch and thermos
    • Use NT membership
  • Explore locally
    • Go on bike rides
    • Fitness or leisurely
    • Drive somewhere new to ride
  • Explore farmers markets (without spending money)

So as an experiment I have scheduled my whole weekend to get in the things I need to do and make sure there is time to do the things I want to do.

weekend strategy

I’m hoping this will help combat weekend binges and the feeling of wasting time, while allowing for rest and relaxation. I’ll report on progress in February.


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