This last weekend was an eye opener for me. I walked up and down Snowdon with a group of friends and I really struggled. I am frustrated and disappointed in where I am currently with my fitness. I have let things slide as I have been pulling back from club politics and focusing on myself, but I don’t think I’ve been focusing on the right things.
I found walking up Snowdon really hard work. I had to go slow and take lots of breaks. I wasn’t left on my own, but most of the group were well ahead of me, especially on the steeper bits. I hated being the slowest. I hated how weak I felt.
I felt really out of shape.
I feel really out of shape.
Don’t get me wrong, I am super proud I achieved the walk up in the shape I currently am. And also I didn’t really ache like some of the others did, but my feet suffered. I know I can do better and I want to do better. I know I don’t want to feel like I currently do and I do not want my weight to stop me doing things I enjoy in the future.
It’s time for a reality check and to stop kidding myself it will happen without me putting in the effort required to make it happen.
I want to be fit and strong.
In order to do that, I need to eat well and exercise regularly. I need consistency. It needs to be a way of life. I need to change some habits. I need overhaul my approach to food. I need to look at my triggers and assess how I can avoid or mitigate them. I need to change how I think about eating and show myself that overeating is not taking care of myself or being kind to myself.
Life is an adventure. I have proved to myself I can do anything I set out to and I know I can make it easier on myself by taking better care of myself. So the next part of my journey is to redefine how I take care of myself.