I’ve been doing a lot of self-help work over that last year and I am finally feeling in a place where I am loving myself for who I am. Although I still struggle and probably will continue to struggle in certain aspects of life.
I found Mara Glatzel through Shauna at The Amazing Adventures of Diet Girl, when she was blogging under Medicinal Marzipan. Now Mara has re-developed her webiste to include the blog and her business of Self-Love Coaching.
This subject area used to be one I avoided. I knew I would want to work on it in the future, but when I was feeling deeply depressed the idea of self-love was just not possible. I didn’t hate myself, but I didn’t trust myself and therefore couldn’t love myself. My self-esteem was extremely low last year and was very dependent on what others thought of me. A big part of my depression has been caused from comparing myself to others and not feeling good enough.
I now use the mantra ‘I am enough’ when I am feeling low. It gets me out of the must solve a problem mentality and lets me ride the wave without being sucked under. I am aware of how I feel, what my thoughts are but I remind myself ‘I am enough’. This has been a big help with the job hunting and going to interviews and believing in myself.
So I come back to Mara and her fantastic blog and website. I signed up to the newsletter straight away and worked through the 5 Days of Deserving writing prompts last week. I really enjoyed these writing prompts as I opened up to myself more than I have done in a long time. They focus on life, work, relationships and then writing a personal Manifesto of Deserving. If you want to have a go at self-exploration sign up for the newsletter to get these prompts. It is eye opening. I felt vulnerable but okay with feeling that way. Feeling vulnerable didn’t lead to feeling ashamed, which I think is where I would go before. I would feel selfish and guilty that I wanted things for me and that I want relationships to benefit me as well as the other person. Basically it made me think about what I deserve and why.
I am going to get Mara’s book Body Loving Homework in September and work through the prompts as part of my Wandering Beyond Angie work. I won’t be publishing the prompts as you will have to get the book yourself for those, but I will monitor how I feel about the work.
I feel I am starting a new journey and loving myself is probably the most important part of living my life to the full.
Go over and take a look at Mara’s site!