On Sunday I swam my first ever 5km swim. That is 5000m metres or 200 lengths of a 25m pool in one go. Okay I had 3 rests to keep hydrated, but each was only around 30 seconds, so over the course of 93 minutes, less than 2% was rest.
I normally swim between 2500m and 3500m (maybe 4000m metres occasionally) in my swimming club sessions, so a 5000m swim was heading into the unknown for me. I didn’t know how my body would feel or react. My strategy was to keep it steady the whole way and finish. Luckily I didn’t have to count my own lengths, so I asked my friend to let me know every 50 lengths so I didn’t have to think about distance at all, just swim.
It was quiet this year, with only 3 swimmers (one was a family group swimming one at a time), so we had a lane each, which was super nice. I started out well and felt good. I didn’t let the speed monster in the lane next to me push me a long, I went with how I felt. I knew I could build up if I had energy left at the end, but main goal was to get to the end.
My swim in pictorial form:
Ignore the 202 lengths. I don’t know if that is a miscount on the watch or my friend, but it is close enough for my records and I’ll go based on total time.
- First 50 lengths or 1.25km = 21.8 minutes
- Second 50 length or 1.25km = 22.5 minutes
- Third 50 lengths or 1.25km = 23.1 minutes
- Fourth 50 lengths or 1.25km – 23.7 minutes
As you can see in my breakdown I slowed down slight in each 50 length section by about 0.6 of a minute (36 seconds) each time, which is fairly consistent. But that is an additional 2 minutes on the final 50 compared to the first 50 lengths. So something else I will look at this year is pacing over greater distances, probably using CSS training more to make sure I keep the same pace throughout. I can see I started faster than I thought I did so I need to work on building knowledge of effort and timing by using a beeper to keep me in check.
The Swimathon is an annual event and I plan on taking part again next year if I can and I believe is for a different cause each year or every other year. This year I raised £70 for Marie Curie.
My next aim for the 5km distance is to swim it in the lake!
Weight is such an annoying topic. It seems to permeate into every aspect of my life somehow and that is because I let it. I have managed to attach my self-worth to what I weigh and it is not the way I want to live. It is restricting and uncomfortable (and not only for my body, but also for my mind). I’m trying to look at myself a different way. To look myself in a way in which I can love myself for who I am rather than for what I am. I want the word ‘fat’ to no longer be attached to myself worth. It is just something that is and that means I can change it if I want to. I don’t want it to get in my way anymore, or be an excuse. So I am going to do something about it.
I’m limiting my body’s potential by eating too much (realised after reading Superlatively Rude -I love this girl!) I’m also limiting my own life’s potential. I want to be able to do anything I set my mind to.
I want to change how I look after myself – body, mind, and soul – as I want to feel strong, sexy, adventurous, confident, competent, sassy, accomplished, and even more!
So how can I change how I take care of myself?
- Swimming – work towards a 10km and lake swimming through winter
- Eat well and not more than I need – cut out the crap!
- Daily personal care – makeup, clothes, face routine
- Monthly personal care – waxing, hair
- Monthly reflections
- Managing my finances and spending wisely
- Work for progress
- My cats – I love them to bits!
- Read good books and watch good tv
- Blog because I love to share, not because I have to blog
- Enjoying my home and space (especially my new garden space)
I do all of this already, but with no regularity and can feel guilty about them as they are personal things for me only and that can feel selfish. I have realised I spend a lot of time adapting to others and that has to stop. I want to be flexible and reliable, but this needs to be on my own terms, not because someone else thinks it’s selfish of me. I want to focus on different aspects of my life and get away from thinking in terms of diet, fitness, and work. I want to create a fulfilled life even if that changes every month. I’ve been so busy focusing on the same things over and over I’ve lost my sense of creatively and adventure. I want to search it out again. I want to change from thinking about the destination to thinking about the journey and enjoying everything single moment I can for the rest of my life – that is my journey.
Sometimes getting things off your chest does wonders.
I didn’t realise how much my thoughts and doubt about my goals was having on other aspects of my life. I was distracted by constantly trying to figure things out. Then once I had sat down and written it out a weight lifted. I made myself some action points and can move forward. I don’t have the answer, but I am moving forward.
This has made me look forward to next week, when before I was feeling guilty as I will probably not do much training.
I’ve taking my Level 1 Teaching Aquatics qualification!
I’m officially becoming a swimming teacher. I really enjoyed the triathlon coaching course last year, but have been honest with myself and said that is not the way forward I want to go with teaching/coaching as I want to concentrate on swimming. So i started helping with the kids section of the my swimming club and in return for my commitment to continue volunteering they will pay for the level 1 and level 2 courses I am taking this year.
Next week is going to be full on. I have to be at the venue 9-5 Monday to Friday and will then have session planning and evaluations as homework every night.
I chose to take the week off work to get this done as my club need level 2 qualified teachers, but you have to be 18 to take that course, which rules out the older kids in the club who help out. This means I can get on a level 2 course early in the year.
I’m now excited (if a little nervous) about this and am not worrying about what this mean for running and cycling. August is a long way off and I know it will come round quickly. However if I peak too soon I really won’t want to train for this event.
I want to enjoy the journey and becoming a swimming teacher is part of that.
Since admitting I was out of sync with things yesterday I have been thinking of how I can re-align things for myself.
A big part of my struggle right now is my schedule. I like having some evenings in during the week to myself. I do not like coming home and then waiting to go to club, specifically running club, as I feel I can run anytime I want to and am not restricted by getting pool time.
So for running I am going to start going on my own straight from work. I will then go to the club as and when i want. This way I come home from work, feed the cats and go back out from home rather than have to drive anywhere. My other option is to run at lunchtime at work. This is the only thing I can do at that time as I would have to drive to a gym or pool. I would just need to be a bit more organised.
For cycling I need to get into the routine of heading out straight after swimming on a weekend at the moment. Once it is lighter I can mix things up and cycle to and from work or go straight after work. I have got a turbo trainer, but have yet to use it or find a space where I can set it up and leave it. I also need to get into the routine of cleaning my bike on the return from a ride. So having an area set up for this would make it easier.
Swimming isn’t an issue really. I am restricted to club pool times to get the most out of my training. I’m rubbish in public sessions. I am having some 121 sessions for lake swimming and video analysis later this month and am really looking forward to getting to know my Critical Swim Speed and train with that.
Making easier for myself will mean getting organised. I would like to make it easier to head out the door so I will take a look at my fitness bags and have they set up and ready to just add clothes. Looking at where and how I store my clothes and changing things up to make things more accessible (and easier to put away after washing!) would be another thing.
I might have a rethink of how my house is set out:
- Is there a way I can have my turbo and bike indoors during the week?
- Where can I keep my fitness bags for easy grab and go?
- Can I store my fitness clothes and accessories in specific boxes?
- Can I make room in the spare room by getting rid of crap?
This is turning into a slightly bigger task than I thought when I started writing this post, but I like the way it is heading. I want my life to be focused around health and fitness and my home doesn’t currently support what I need, so I need to make some changes. However I will not try to do this all at once. I will start with the actual fitness scheduling and over the next few weeks start making changes at home to support it. I need to figure what I have when it comes to storage and where I can put things and therefore if things need to be moved.
I feel so much better for getting yesterday’s post out there as it has helped me move onto the problem solving rather than be stuck in the problem.
I also do want to do the 70.3 this year. I’m just scared at the moment.
Things haven’t been going to plan.
The plan I set last year.
The plan for the goal that isn’t resonating with me anymore.
When things aren’t aligning with your values everything feels like a struggle. Feels like punishment.
I’ve been absent from the blog because I don’t know what to say. I set up 2015 to be the year I completed a 70.3 triathlon. But I’m not feeling it anymore. I don’t know if I ever felt it really. I signed up because everyone else was – bad reason!
Things just feel out of sync.
Until I think about swimming. There I know I want to swim a 5k and a 10k event. I feel excited thinking about those goals. I want to put the effort in there. I want to spend the summer at the lake.
I am taking some time to figure things out. If I hadn’t signed up for the triathlon already I wouldn’t sign up now. I need to decide if I want to do this. I know I do deep down, or I will at some point. The opportunity is here now and I want to take it, but at the same time I don’t.
I’m hoping this is all just a severe case of winter blues and hating the dark. I’m on my swim teaching course next week and each day it is getting lighter so I’m hopeful in a couple of weeks time I’ll be back on form and set on my goals.
Everyone must hit the wall or the sticky lake of mud that slows you down but doesn’t knock you off your feet. It’s frustrating more than anything.