Week one on the WeightWatchers ProPoints plan and I’ve lost 3lbs!
I was very active last week, and although had a bad evening Saturday and not the best Sunday I was within all my points for the week. I’m really happy with my loss, but part of me thinks I didn’t deserve it – I need to work on this!
So the meeting today (although I weighed in yesterday) was all about having the right support. I was the only one at the lunchtime meeting, which was weird, but also nice as Alison, the leader, still did the talk, but it was more personal – shout out to her as she is doing the moonwalk in London this weekend Go Alison!
This is an area of my life I want to improve. I’ve got fitness support with my swimming and running club. I’ve got family support from my parents and sisters. I’ve got penpal support from Ingrid. I’ve got girl friends support every so often, but this is where I feel something is missing. I’ve spoken about being lonely before and I’m making small steps each week to improve this.
So over the next week I’ve got swimming and running club. I’ve got my mum coming to my triathlon with me (even getting up at 6am on a Sunday!), plus swimming and running club friends there on the day. I’m going to make the effort to stay for a drink or two after running club sessions next week. I’m also going to get my friend Linz to the gym! So I definitely feel like I’m being social and not hiding away – just got to keep reminding myself of that!
Already started this week feeling motivated and ready for my triathlon this weekend – Wish me Luck!
This week was much better. I still binged, but I tracked everything. EVERYTHING!
Why is it so easy to eat 3000 calories?!!!
Anyway, I lost a pound, so I’m happy as it’s back in the right direction.
I kept an average calorie deficit of over 600 calories a day so it worked out well. I burned a lot this last week too. I did have a very active weekend. I need to find a balance between activity and fuelling myself well enough to do all of it without having to binge. My activity and steps were great again this week. Sleep has not really improved and I’m not sure what to do about it. I’m planning on speaking to my doctor about it again.
I think tiredness is a big factor in my binges. I noticed this week that I was tired and couldn’t be bothered to cook or organise, so went for quick and easy. I craved carbs and sugar. It was interesting as I was listening to the latest Jillian Michaels podcast and she was talking about it you think about eating protein, like chicken or eggs, and really don’t want it, you are just craving and not actually hungry. I need to try this. Plus have protein snacks available at the weekends. I get organised for most of the week, but the remainder of the week from Thursday tends to fall apart as I get tired. It’s been interesting to notice this about myself and now I know there are things I can do about it.
This week I’m off to Portugal to visit my friend Ingrid and I cannot wait! We will be sampling the delights of Portugal and walking – lots of walking Ingrid! My goals are to track everything and walk. Also to try and stick to 3 meals and a snack as much as possible. But to also have fun and relax and enjoy my time off and spending time with my friend
Today I took part in my first ever running club event – a 5 mile run organised by the Highworth Running club. We all met at the local supermarket then went in groups to the race. That was really nice as I’m always more nervous about the pre-race part than the actual event. So it was great for me to go with a group and know people already and just be able to follow everyone else.
The race started off at a local school and we all got ready. I almost ran in just my vest, but then decided not to try anything new and put my long sleeved top back on. I’m glad I did as it was fairly windy.
At 11am we headed out to the road and started the 5 mile course. It was on roads all the way and fairly flat for the first 4 miles, with some nice gently meandering down hills. The cars were pretty good at going past slowly apart form on the main road at miles 4 to 5, but we were all spread out by then so no problems.
My aim was to run the whole way and I did! I was so happy I ran up the hill, everyone had been talking about. The hill wasn’t too bad, but the problem is that it’s at mile 4 and doesn’t stop until towards the end when we headed back into the school! Everyone I was running with walked once we reached the hill, but I kept going and slowly made my way up. It was hard, but I did it. That’s where they decided to take the club photos!
I actually like these photos. I managed to smile and kept running as there were a couple of team members cheering us on at that point and knew it wasn’t far to go.
It was hard at this point because the people who had walked up the hill were starting to overtake again, but I was running out of steam. This is where the horrible thoughts started appearing and it was a struggle all the way to the finish. The hardest part of this the whole race was the last 300 metres! I headed into the school and thought I was done, but I had to run round the field before finishing. The only thing that kept me going were my team mates cheering me on. It was so hard, but I kept going and did it!
54 minutes 50 seconds!
I was aiming for 1 hour 10 minutes, and did it 15 minutes faster! I still can’t believe it. I feel great and so proud of myself. I have another medal to add to my collection too
I am so glad I joined my local running club. I feel part of a team and group that supports each other. I have come so much further than I thought I could have when I started running last August. I’m Proud to be a Hound!
I wanted to do another update on how I’m getting on with my 29 by 29 list this last month:
Move into my own place - Complete!
- Adopt a cat – I’m thinking June/July after I’ve had laser eye surgery to avoid allergies
- Do a Super Sprint Triathlon - 400m swim, 20km bike, 2.5km run - Signed up for the short super sprint on the 12th May!
- Take part in running club events and volunteer to help when I can’t take part – I’ve signed up for two 5 miles events in April and June and thinking a 10km for July
- Do the Parkrun once a month and volunteer as a marshall
- January = 38:19
- February = 34:40
- March = 34:42
- Bake more bread – yet to start this
- Complete the CBT Journal for Dummies - Got delayed with the move and getting proper CBT therapist, but will pick up again
- Read more classic books as part of my 2013 reading challenge - i’m going to make sure I do this over the remainder of the year
- Stick to my budget and save for holidays and house things - this is more important than ever!
- Take a bike maintenance course – been looking for one, but no joy yet
- Join a WW meeting and work towards goal - I created my 3 month and 6 month plan so this has changed a bit
Blog – maybe a redesign - Complete!
- Plan budget friendly trips – Booked to go to Portugal this month, then it will be exploring locally
- Try acupuncture – this is going to depend on finances
- Keep working to create and maintain good mental health - Working on this and it has really become an important aspect of my life
- Join a coffee club - it’s one of my big weight loss rewards for the next few months
- Take part in the Masters galas and club championships
- February Gala – 2 Golds and 2 Silvers!
- Next one in June
- Work out savings plan for trip to Japan - this is on hold
- Catch up on Greys Anatomy (been watching Castle non stop)
- Get regular haircuts - Going well
- Move forward with my life and make new friends – making work friends
- Do my best at my new job - I am enough - Still think this is going well.
- Keep my commute healthy - Felt better this last week as the evenings are now lighter (worried about next winter though)
- Listen to Harry Potter audiobooks - Books one, two and three done
Get rid of stuff I no longer need when I move – Complete!
- Use the mantra ‘F**k It’ – trying to remember this
- Take up pilates or yoga – might have to get a dvd to do this one
- Create photo albums for all my trips
- Try two new recipes a month from my cook books - Now I’ve got my veg box coming each week I am making more of an effort to try new combinations, but would like to sit down and take the time to decide on some recipes.
Overall good progress this month. A few things are on hold due to finances, but not ruled out forever – who knew buying a house was so costly! Then other things have come a long like being told I have to wear glasses all the time – hence the laser eye surgery booking. This is not a bad thing though, I just need to prioritise and explore locally more. I’m happy, nervous and excited that I’ve signed up for a few events over the next couple of months. It gives me something to work towards and keep me focused. I’m really looking forward to heading over to Portugal to see Ingrid. I think the coming month is going to be a good one too!
So this last week was better than the week before, but not great. I lost it on Friday and couldn’t get it back until Sunday. I stayed the same weight, which is frustrating, but at least I didn’t gain.
I was really please with my average calorie burn over the week and also with my activity and steps! I went swimming, running, to the gym and did 30 Day Shred! I also got my bike fixed and went for a 5 mile and 9 mile rides at the weekend. I’ve got this part down
The calories consumed reflect the good days, but no the two bing days. I’ve set myself the task of sticking to 1800 calories for six days this week and then having one day where I can have more – that will be Saturday I think. Trying a different tactic by setting myself a rule. I tried using maintain a 1000 calorie deficit, but I really struggle with it and tend to each too much. So I’m working on reducing my snacking and having three meals a day and one snack – I’ve been listening to Jillian Michaels!
Speaking of Jillian Michaels I listened to her podcast from a few weeks ago where she had a caller and was talking about why we stay overweight. It got me thinking about what does staying at my current weight afford me? I would love to say nothing at all, but I know that is not true. It is a protection in some form. I think from rejection mainly. It is an excuse for not doing things or not being the best at something. I found it really interesting to think about this without judgement, just honesty.
I am definitely afraid of rejection and it is something I am working on with my CBT therapist. The session last week touched on it and it was so hard to talk about. My post from easter weekend really got me thinking. I keep so busy that it stops me from feeling or thinking about things that are really getting to me. I didn’t realise how lonely I was until I was on my own without the option to do something else. That scared me and not in a good way.
This week I’ve planned my meals and fitness and feel positive. I want to do what is good for myself and treat myself well. I want to value myself and make them internal to myself. I spend my life seeing myself how I think the world does and I want to change that. I want to know deep inside I am good enough being me. I want to know I can challenge myself and not feel afraid of failing, but a willingness to take risks and try new things. I want to be myself around people – those I know and those I don’t yet. I want to not be afraid of rejection for being me. I want to stop using my weight as an excuse and learn new ways of protecting myself, while allowing myself to be vulnerable and real.
I feel good.