I am enjoying my job. I get to hear about interesting projects and meet great people. I also get to visit some lovely places. I feel very lucky.
I have been so focused on moving my career forward I forgot about the enjoying and learning from the day to day activities. I feel this is what I have been focusing on recently. I want to progress, but there are things I need to learn in order to do so.
So this month is about my interim Personal Development Plan review. I need to go through my objectives with my boss, but also I need to make time to go through them and plan them for myself. I get caught up in my daily to do list and forget the bigger picture. I need to find a way of presenting my objectives visually in order to know I am working on the right things at the right times.
It’s really interested to be in an organisation that takes development seriously. Maybe I have just been unlucky, but I feel positive about this way of working. I feel I have a plan and targets and can think proactively more than I ever have before. So I want to make sure I am working effectively in order to learn the skills I need to be able to progress when the time comes.
I am feeling good. I feel life is coming together and I am enjoying it. Of course there are things that I want to change, but I am not beating myself up about those things as I know if I was really engaged with them I would make the change no matter the effort required. So I am just taking time to reflect and be present, and think about where I want to head. I feel Project Lifestyle has been working well for me. It has given me some focus but also allowed me to think and take a step back every month to review these aspects of my life I find important enough to reflect on.
I’ve also accepted that for me the medication I’ve on works. I might come off of it, but I am not using that as my measure of success anymore. It is about how I feel and how I am doing at life when playing by my rules. For me it about spending my time how I want to and as long as I feel I am not wasting it then that makes me happy.
So this month I am carrying on with the things that are working and now bringing in anything new – except my kittens! I think I’ve managed to get them into every post so far – sorry about that! But actually thinking about it I have wanted to get a pet since I knew I was buying house back in 2012. It’s taken this long for me to make that step and I think that is something to be celebrating. Something was holding me back, but that is no longer there and I am so glad to have them both in my home. I love their little characters and their cute faces and the way their eyes follow me around the room. It’s a huge step to take on responsibility for another creature’s life, when a while ago I was only just staying on top of my life on its own.
I feel I’m finally at peace with my social life. I spend time with those people I want to spend time and get out to running and swimming club during the week. I’ve added swim coaching and chat to lots of different people. I’m happy with how things are at the moment. I enjoy spending time with my family, but also I enjoy my time alone either at home or wandering.
I’ve accepted I’m not a social butterfly and thought of spending too long with people is draining on its own without actually having to do it. I’m not good at just hanging out. I like to be doing stuff, so it’s been great to get out with my friend walking. Also the cats have helped and meant I’ve invited people round mien to meet them.
There have been a few events in other people lives recently that have made me stop and think. I’m fed up with justifying who I am and I am just going to live how I want to live and be happy being me. If others don’t like that or me because of it I haven’t got time for them. I’ve also realised if it is always me making the effort I get annoyed and therefore need to stop. All relationships should be balanced and everyone happy in them and to be honest my most important relationship right now is the one I have with myself.
This month is about continuing my routine. I love the weather and the social side of all my activities. I’m also loving the swim coaching I’m doing – it probably helps I’m learning the names of the kids I’m teaching! I’m finding the balance between being busy and active and being rested. This week I feel I need a bit more rest as I just got my kittens and they like to wake me up at 4am each morning at the moment. I’m also worried about them. Not that anything is wrong, but I am responsible for them and that makes me concerned about their welfare and wellbeing.
So his month it really about taking stock of where I am and where I want to go. I am taking some time out to enjoy the kittens as kittens and stay at home some evenings. It’s been nice to enjoy some down time. I’m also distracted by them and crawling around on the floor playing with them so might count that as a workout!
I want to add strength training back into my routine. I debating either taking a Body Pump class or getting myself back to the gym. I am better getting to things that are structured at the moment, rather than organising myself, so it will probably be pump over the gym.
Sometimes I feel like there is not enough time in the day for me to do everything I want to do and I the thing that has given over the last few months is my strength training. I love how it makes me feel though so I want to get back in the habit and make it an essential part of my routine. I just need to figure out how to get the right balance for me and accept that I might need a summer and a winter routine instead.
If I’m honest I’m not sure what I’m doing this month. It’s all about the cat’s nutrition really. Why do they have it so easy? The vet has said as long as they have good quality dry food that is all they need. My neighbour uses the same food as I am moving my cats to and said she give hers some tuna as a treat, so I thought I would do that. But having an all in one food is striking a cord with me. Not that I want to drink shakes or have baby food type meals, but it seems so easy. However I know I would hate it.
I’ve had further conversations with my doctor about this again this month and I feel he is being relaly supportive and helping me. It is not like I am sitting at home doing nothing. In the last two months I’ve done 2 triathlons and my longest every open water swim. Plus all the training that goes with those things! I just also eat too much.
So this month I am going to concentrate on slowing down. I’m going to start using the 20 minute guide to help me eat my meals over a longer period, not just wolf them down. I want to notice how my body reacts to being fed and relearn those feelings I don’t notice anymore.
So a simple thing, but one I neglect fully.