Cocoa Runners is a subscription box service. I found them a while ago and followed them on Twitter and Instagram before deciding to sign up. They were them on a weekend kitchen show, which made me happy. I really want to make good chocolate a part of my life and want to cut out the crap that is more sugar than real chocolate, so paying a. Bit extra each month to try some new and different chocolates I wouldn’t be able to find at home is the first step in making this change.
The first box contained these four bars and also came with tasting notes and an brief explanation of where they came from and about the company that produces them.
My favourite was the Original Beans bar as it was smooth and the flavour was nice. The one I had liked least was the Pacari bar as the flavour was very intense.
I have also received another two boxes I have yet to start, but they look absolutely fantastic.
I admit it. I am totally lazy when it comes to food.
I hate preparing meals. I much prefer to heat something up or chuck it all on a baking tray and let it cook. I like things easy. I buy ready prepared salad, and even then struggle to open a can of tuna to put on top of in the morning for lunch. I bulk cook things so I ready meals for during the week.
The only thing I seem to take time to prepare is porridge, eggs, and coffee!
I have been thinking hard about this and how it affects my weight. Currently I buy food to eat when I want it, like sandwiches or pizza, which is a total waste of money! Also this means I am eating more calories than I need, so I’ve put on weight.
So I need to make it work for me.
I’m not going to change, because I don’t want to. I could say I don’t have the time or the skills, but really deep down I know I am not bothered by cooking and would much prefer someone else to cook for me. If I could afford it I would totally give one of those meal delivery services a go!
So I need to accept this and what comes with it.
- I only have so much freezer space and therefore can only have so many homemade ready meals. This then limits the types of meals and I need to accept that I have to repeat meals quite often.
- I also have to accept than pre-prepared vegetables are more expensive and I have to pay for the ease of it.
- Eggs are a girl’s best friend – quick, easy, and can be done in a variety of ways
- Cook from frozen foods are not quick, but are handy for putting on timer when going out for a work out – if I’m organised!
- Don’t turn down a dinner invitation to you parents – unless you absolutely can’t go, like my swimming gala on Saturday night, so they put me up a meal to take home J
- Repetition may be boring, but it’s easy and means I stick to my calorie need
This was a bit of a get it out of my head and written down so I can understand it myself better. My relationship with food is always one I struggle with and therefore making it work is something very important to me.
A couple of weeks ago me and my friend Sian went on a day course for making sweet trees. They are basically centre pieces for tables or fantastic gifts to be able to give people. We made a chocolate one and a flying saucer one and it was great fun.
I don’t want to tell you exactly how we made each as it is someone’s business but they are easy to make and you could use pretty much any type of sweets on it.
I still have the chocolate one as I gave up chocolate for lent, so am waiting to enjoy it after. I was going to give it as a gift, but couldn’t think of anyone who loves chocolate as much as I do, who also had a birthday or event coming up (such a shame). It was also fairly expensive and my friend has since been making some at home and has said getting set up to be able to make them all is not cheap. So overall a fun day and something great to learn how to do as it would be a fun and different gift to give someone.
Otherwise known as ‘I finally made something I found on Pinterest!’.
I decided to make my Dad a cupcake golf course for his family lunch for his 65th birthday and I was really pleased with how they came out.
I used a basic sponge recipe:
- 6oz self raising flour
- 6oz stork baking margarine
- 60z caster sugar
- teaspoon baking powder
I then used another basic butter cream recipe for the icing – a block of butter and a box of icing sugar, with a dash of milk and a teaspoon of vanilla. Whizz it up for 15 minutes – yes one five (fifteen) to make it super creamy.
I then had a selection of coloured fondant and sugars to decorate. Also food colouring and butterscotch pieces.
I forgot to take photos once I started decorating!
It went down well and everyone liked how it was easy to pull apart and no knife was needed
I was really impressed with a recent blog post by Hank over at The Business of Losing Weight – You Wouldn’t Give a Drug Addict a Cheat Day.
I am also a food addict. I’ve never thought of it that way, but food is always on my mind and I eat to comfort myself in times of extreme emotion (or any emotion really). Food it the first thing that comes to mind in the morning, and food is the last thing on my mind at night. It’s not a peaceful place to be.
The post by Hank really resonated with me. I’ve no trouble sticking to things or stopping things as long as they aren’t food related. With the below quote I thought I was actually saying it myself:
“Being addicted to food is worse than being addicted to a drug like heroin because my body NEEDS food. I can’t quit food cold turkey. I can’t detox off of food. The ONLY thing that I can do is MANAGE my addiction.”
If I could quit food completely I would avoid temptation. That is not possible. We all need food to survive. Therefore I have to go food shopping. I have to eat and put food in my mouth. I have to go out for meals with friends to have a life. Food is everywhere and therefore temptation is everywhere, so all I can do is manage my addiction. For me that means avoiding trigger foods and tracking my food intake. It also means using my CBT tools to manage my thoughts and behaviour.
“And the only way to MANAGE it is to fully embrace the idea that overcoming your addiction means changing the way you think about food and committing to living as if you truly WANT to change.”
I have to want it. I have to make Project Lifestyle what I want in order to make it sustainable and liveable forever. I have always used cheat or treat days. I used it as something to look forward to each week. I would plan it out to make the most of it, but really it was just a binge. A behaviour I want and need to stop. The next paragraph hit me hard.
“Would you ever consider telling a drug addict that it would be ok for them to have a cheat day? A full day in which they were allowed to do whatever drugs they wanted. No? How about offering them just one cheat high? Not a full day of uncontrolled drug use, just one fix. A cheat “meal” if you will. That would be ridiculous, right? Offering a drug addict a day to go back to their old ways would ruin every effort to help them overcome their problem. So why should ANYONE who is grossly overweight because of their food addiction be allowed a day to cheat on their recovery?”
It would be ridiculous to offer some addicted to any kind of drug a cheat day. So why do we promote it for people who are overweight and addicted to food? I know I can undo an entire week of good work in one binge! I’m not exaggerating as I’ve done it. One binge can for me might as well have meant I’d eaten exactly what I wanted all week and not binged at the end. This next quote was a kick in the stomach and made me want to change my attitude and approach.
“Cheat” days or even meals for an obese person are a sign that someone doesn’t truly want to change themselves. They have not set aside their former self for their new and improved self.”
I want to change, therefore I have to change. There will be slip ups along the way, but that is what recovery is about. It’s not about being good or bad, but rather recognising that food, for me, is not simple. I want to eat to live, not live to eat.
My name is Angie and I’m a Food Addict.
Changes I will make:
Be active everyday
Focus on whole foods with little processing
Cook my own ready meals and make use of my freezer
Do not buy trigger foods – chocolate, cake, biscuits – anything with processed sugar
Try new foods – legumes and grains first
No more treat days – enjoy every meal for what it is and how it fuels my body