I’ve been slacking for a while. With my blog, my depression, my life. Okay I’m exaggerating, but it does feel like it sometimes. I know I need to work hard to get the things I want, but for some reason I just expect things to happen lately – without work – and I know really that is not how life works.
I’ve always worked my hardest to do well and succeed at the things I want. I was lucky to have amazing parents who let me try and do things I wanted. I’be never been the best at anything, but I have the determination to try things out. But there is a down side – I often don’t follow things through.
This is what I feel I’m doing at the moment. I’m not following through on my plans or goals. I set them, plan them out, then just expect them to happen. But that is not how it works. I’m sure we all wish it was sometimes, but it’s a rare occasion when it does.
I also think I’ve been taking on too much and this does not make it easier to follow everything through. I need to take some time to really think about what I want and focus on those things properly. If that means I have to put things on hold indefinitely I need to do it. I read this article about giving things up and at the time it didn’t make sense, but this weekend it really does. I keep getting stressed about all the things I don’t have time to do, when really I need to be honest and say I don’t want to do them right now. I am doing other things and could always come back to somethings at a later time.
My focuses at the moment are:
- Training for my half marathon
- Getting over depression – CBT and getting of medication
- Health, diet and weight loss
- Developing at work
- Enjoying life
These are small things. Trying to do anything more is too much right now. All of them take work to achieve and progress so I need to give them what they need and deserve in order to be successful for me. I want to enjoy my life and take time out of developing to just be me. I feel I’m missed my twenties and don’t want that to happen as I get closer to my thirties.
Life scares me, but I want it to be an adventure. Everyday in some way. Whether that’s writing my blog, running a new route, sailing with my sister, reconnecting with people, or just taking time to enjoy the quiet.
A bit of a random post, but I just wanted to get my thoughts out. Time to catch up on some book and coffee posts I’ve neglected 🙂