I seem to spending a lot of time wondering about what I want to do with my life. It scares me that I don’t know what direction I want to take.
I want to see this as a opportunity to consider lots of different things I could do. I could change direction any time I want. I could have several different careers in my life.
But this fights against my need for routine. It would a be huge risk to take. It would also push me out of my comfort zone more. I know this would be good, but it’s stressful. It would also stop me challenging myself in other areas of my life.
I am not happy doing what I’m doing at the moment. It’s for a variety of reasons but it seems like I am no longer interested in the area I am working in. I feel guilty when I think like this as I have put in a lot of time, effort and money into this career direction and now I don’t enjoy it anymore.
But then I look at other things I am doing ing my life and things I’ve done in the past and I realise that I do not do the same things for very long as I get bored of them. Even swimming I get bored of and need to shake things up every now and then.
I want to broaden out, but I don’t know how.
How can I shake up my career?
How can I move in another direction?
How can I keep going at what I am doing without going crazy?
I feel trapped and frustrated. I also feel bored and not supported. Non of these feelings are constructive and I feel in a downward cycle. I don’t want to sit waiting for something to magically come along. I want to do something now to make my situation better. So I am going to focus on improving what I am doing and making it ready for someone else to take on.
Going to a work event in the last week has proved to me that it is time to move on. It’s just frustrating having to wait.