After my thoughts yesterday I know I need to step back from things to make sure I’m okay.

I’ve made some big decisions recently and they have been affecting me in ways I didn’t realise they would. That’s okay it’s just caught me unawares. I have to be okay with the decisions I’ve made and be able to cope with the consequences.

I also know I need to take a another look at what I do and how I spend my time to ensure I’m happy.

Today I decided to stop swimming one session a week. This will mean I swim only 4 times instead of the 5 I was paying for. The night session was stressing me out. Not the actual swimming but the fight to get out the door. I’m not a night person and like to have a long unwinding period before going to bed. So I’ve decided to stop that session.

It’s lifted a weight off me somehow. I feel less stressed and calmer.

It’s not quitting it is reorganising. I recognise I try to do too much. I find it hard to be flexible and hate that I don’t spend more time with my friends.

I need to take a few steps backwards to be able to see things from a different perspective. Also to approach things calmer than I currently feel about everything.

I don’t want to regret rushing through the next month just to get to a quieter time and miss out on actually experiencing things.

I’m not sure how I’m going to do this but I am going to try even if that just means I focus in one thing at a time.

I suppose I’m just wondering what I’m meant to do with my life, but that’s a big question I don’t know if I’ll ever know the answer.

One step at a time.